Today's post isn't going to be talking about my outfit, or Coachella parties, or whatever else is abuzz in the blogosphere right now. I just wanna get real with you for a sec.
I've been slacking on social media as of late because I've been really overwhelmed.
You know those times when you feel like you're being dragged out to sea by the tide, and you're fighting to get back to shore and you know you'll make it but god you're so fucking exhausted and can't wait for it to be over? That's how I feel right now. In the span of the last few days, I experienced my third hit-and-run in a year while I was still in the car, one of my closest friends was drugged on a date, and I found out another friend passed away. On top of everything, it's Coachella week, which is one of the busiest work weeks for me. I haven't been able to sleep. I've kind of felt like a zombie nodding and smiling my way through life when inside I feel tumultuous as fuck. When it rains, it fucking pours. I'm not sure I've had the time or mental capacity to process it all yet. I suppose this blog post is a good place to start.
I originally started blogging as both a creative writing tool and an outlet for release (all of which have been reverted to draft for my personal reference). It's nice to be able to revisit my origins and vent a little. I also wanted to show you that I'm a real person, with real feelings and real shit to endure. My life isn't all pretty photos and cool clothes, that's just what I chose to share. People you see on the internet are not always #goals or #perfection or "Can I be you?"-worthy and I think it's refreshing to have a reminder; I speak for myself as well. My life is real, it's flawed, it can be a little ugly, and I'm just like you. But I'm grateful to have this medium in which to connect with you guys on this level--thank you for letting me confide in you.
photography by Randy Tran