Wednesday, April 8, 2015

getting real


Today's post isn't going to be talking about my outfit, or Coachella parties, or whatever else is abuzz in the blogosphere right now. I just wanna get real with you for a sec.

I've been slacking on social media as of late because I've been really overwhelmed.

You know those times when you feel like you're being dragged out to sea by the tide, and you're fighting to get back to shore and you know you'll make it but god you're so fucking exhausted and can't wait for it to be over? That's how I feel right now. In the span of the last few days, I experienced my third hit-and-run in a year while I was still in the car, one of my closest friends was drugged on a date, and I found out another friend passed away. On top of everything, it's Coachella week, which is one of the busiest work weeks for me. I haven't been able to sleep. I've kind of felt like a zombie nodding and smiling my way through life when inside I feel tumultuous as fuck. When it rains, it fucking pours. I'm not sure I've had the time or mental capacity to process it all yet. I suppose this blog post is a good place to start.

I originally started blogging as both a creative writing tool and an outlet for release (all of which have been reverted to draft for my personal reference). It's nice to be able to revisit my origins and vent a little. I also wanted to show you that I'm a real person, with real feelings and real shit to endure. My life isn't all pretty photos and cool clothes, that's just what I chose to share. People you see on the internet are not always #goals or #perfection or "Can I be you?"-worthy and I think it's refreshing to have a reminder; I speak for myself as well. My life is real, it's flawed, it can be a little ugly, and I'm just like you. But I'm grateful to have this medium in which to connect with you guys on this level--thank you for letting me confide in you.

photography by Randy Tran


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  1. Hey
    May be i don't need to tell you this but.. stay strong. It will all be okay.

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  2. Sometimes social media makes us forget that there is a real person behind all the images we see, who is living their life just like we live ours. We lose touch with our own reality because we want to imitate what we see as perfect and that's not how it should be. Thanks for sharing this post because like you said, it's a great reminder that life is life and good or bad it happens to all of us.

    Amanda
    theaffluentfemale.wordpress.com

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  3. Sometimes life fucking sucks. Have a cry, drink a beer and give yourself a grieving allowance. You can do this!

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  4. I totally agree. I wrote about the same type of issue on my blog about how social media is just a facade; a bandaid to cover up all the flaws that makes us real. Life's not all shits & giggles, which people tend to forget when they see your gorgeous photos and IG feed. I hope you get through it! Remember that taking care of your body should be a top priority as well.


    If you have time to read my blog post ( http://www.eunique-kollection.com/2015/04/smile-more-frown-less.html ), I hope that it'll leave you with a positive outlook on your struggles. I'm not trying to self-promote on here or anything, but just wish that it'll resonate with you on a deeper level.

    Chin up, darling! Stay strong :)


    xoxo,
    Eunice Kim
    www.eunique-kollection.com
    @eunique_kollection

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  5. Nice!

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  6. Umm...Speaking from Experience...When Shit Gets to the point where..."Fuck..What am I going to do?"
    Had it more than a few...
    Dropped to The Knees...
    Now What???
    Broke..Homeless...Debt Collection ALL Up On Ya!!
    Sometimes When The Worst Shit Happens Strength You Didn't know ya Had Shows Up! Hope Things get Better for ya
    Know that You as A Public Person Make People Happy Every Day.

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  7. Thank you for letting us have a peak into your life and reminding us that you're a real person to . Thank you for just being genuine. Stay strong! You can make it through the downs of life. Your fans (myself included) will be cheering you on :)

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  8. Sorry to hear all that bad stuff has happened to you! The bad patch will be over soon enough though and you'll come out of it stronger. Love your outfit and best of luck at Coachella!

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  10. This broke my heart to read. I hope you're doing ok and take all the time you need, don't feel pressured to do anything that's not of your own pace. Thoughts are with you x

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  11. ur blogs; font way too small
    make it bigger plz

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  12. Hi, I hope it will get better soon for you. I have experienced this kind of period several times in my life and I know how hard it is when everything goes wrong around you but you have to keep going because world will not stop for your problems. Stay strong girl, but try to get some rest even if you can't, sleeping is very important during those hard times. I send you a lot of support :).

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  13. I'm sorry for the loss of your friend, and all the other crap that has happened. Best wishes.

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  14. Things will get better soon. Take as long as a break you need. Focus on you for now. I'm sure me and your other readers will understand that. Thank you for being real and sharing a bit more than your fashion life with us. Fighting~

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  15. I'm so sorry that all happened. And also, thank you so much for letting us in your life.
    Sometimes life takes us so high only to send us down as hard as it can. And if you would just want to stay lying on the ground to get some rest before you get up and climb up again, that's perfectly fine.

    Sending you love and support~

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  16. So sorry for your loss. You will get through this, try and take it one day at a time. Sending you peaceful prayers.

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  17. she should consider being a professional model

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  18. you should consider being a ford model

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  19. You are beautiful, powerful, and oh so real. A magical combination that makes me respect you even more as an artist and blogger. Never the less, I love this outfit! So cool how you chose to pair a delicate top and bottom with the hard edge of a navy Doc!
    It'll all come out well babe. Just hang on while the wild wind blows.

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  20. Stay brave. Sometimes life can be really hard. Thank you for sharing a real, vulnerable side.

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  21. Amazing! You write so interesting posts and make very beautiful photos! Like your blog! Keep doing it!
    I’ll be happy to see you in my blog!)

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  22. I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I can relate, things have been very rough the last few months. People can sit here and tell you it's going to be ok and give you advice, and although you appreciate it, you don't really care. Nothing helps. It just takes time and a lot of thinking and figuring out on your end. That's what it's been like for me anyway. Take some time to deal with the things going on, that is really what's best (whenever you get the chance after such a busy week!).

    I appreciate posts like these. They really do remind people, as you said, that there is a real person behind all the pretty photos with a real life and real shit going on. I hope things look up for you soon. Much love. <3

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  23. you look beautiful - love your outfit , hope you feel better x
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  24. I promise you that you are not the only one feeling this way! But I really hope everything turns up for you soon :) You're lovely

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  25. So incredibly true. Thank you for being honest and relatable about it though! xx

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  26. Love this feminine and boho look!

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